I've learned a few things on my way to this age...some came
easy, some the hard way...and I wouldn't trade not one experience, one
heartache, or one moment of bliss for anything in the world! I'm an
experiential learner, as well as a hard-headed-do-it-mySelfer, so digging in
the dirt comes natural, albeit, a bit messy. I've done many, many things in my
life the exact wrong way, so I could
apparently discover the RIGHT way...for me. It's not always been pretty, and
for a good bit of my life I felt awful, even guilty for screwing up or making
mistakes, because I thought I should "know better". What I finally
understand is, I was on my way to not only "knowing better", but
knowing ME all the time!
Through all the excavating, it occurred to me along the way
that the way I see myself and my world is my choice, and that the only evidence of anything being true or false
lives in my own perspective, which is completely dependent on how I choose to translate the evidence I find. So, I
decided to change my perspective! Yep. I just decided...just like that. I made
the choice to perceive life as more of an adventure than a test; to stop
questioning why things are happening TO me and consider how they are happening
FOR Me, and viola! Everything changed.
I stopped feeling responsible for things that weren't mine.
I stop apologizing for being human. I stopped wasting time regretting my
choices and looked for the gifts instead. I learned how to leave others'
opinions and judgments to them. I risked being disliked, misunderstood, and
ridiculed to honor mySelf and live according to my own values. I learned to let
go, get out of my own way, and listen to higher guidance, first. I learned that forgiveness from others is not required, but
forgiveness for Self is as vital as air. I stopped wondering what "happy,
joyful and free" felt like and started LIVING it! And the digging
continues...
Today, I can honestly say that when I make choices that are
not in alignment with my highest good, I simply choose again! I shake off the
humanness of shame and regret, make amends if needed, get up, and dig some
more, because that's where the goodies are...down deep in the Soul, where God
hangs out. Yes, every single experience of life has brought me home to mySelf,
and there's just no sweeter place to live.
Can YOU dig it?
